Drinking Dream

Clear as day!
I had a plastic glass of beer. It was about 1/2 full. I took one more sip and then placed it behind the counter/bar. The bartender was Rick B. LOL and he said..."AGAIN?"

My best friend told me the evening before that she gave up on keeping track of whether I was drinking or not drinking. #1. that hurt #2. it reminded me of how casually I go back into drinking modes. Planned or unplanned. No big deal. Then the next bottom happens...and I'm back in the program. Wouldn't it just be easier to just STAY in the program??? Wouldn't I find that peace and serenity that passes all understanding???

Recovery

from the book, Mindful Recovery: A Spiritual Path to Healing from Addiction

pg 20:  For recovery is a process. It is a process navigating between complacency on the one hand, and self-recrimination and despair on the other.

So when a slip does occur, it is important to maintain a compassionate attitude toward yourself, seeing yourself as in a learning process rather than doomed to failure. You are human, and this is the way human beings learn. By bringing mindfulness to the slip, and what triggered it, you can form a plan to deal with that kind of situation in the future.  

pg 21: This book primarily deals with people in the maintenance phase. That is, it will show you how to build a satisfying and meaningful life without addiction once you have quit.  After contemplating quitting an addiction, after the decision has been made and implemented, there remains this tedious business of living without the alcohol or other drug. This part deserves special attention. For if you can build a happy, fulfilling. meaningful life, relapse will be much less of an issue.